Rudy is understandably a mess after losing his left hand, his father, and his mother as he knew her. He’s holed up in his room and looks much the worse for wear, neither eating nor sleeping and racked with guilt and impostor syndrome. Why did Paul shield him, when he believes Norn, Aisha, Lilia and Zenith deserved it more?
Roxy comes to his room to invite him to explore Rapan more before they depart, but when he refuses, she locks the door and stays with him. She speaks of the pain of losing someone close while adventuring, considered Paul and Zenith a second family, and offers to stay with Rudy that night and comfort him; he can leave everything to her.
He does, and wakes up the next morning with a naked Roxy sleeping beside him. Her goal was to make him feel a little better by sharing the burden of the pain he felt, Rudy does feel a little better.
It gets his mind off his past life, when he neither honored nor mourned his parents. When he asks his Master what he should do next, Roxy’s answer is clear and direct: look forward, and treasure the family you still have, who are waiting for him.
Thanks to Roxy, Rudy is able to get out of his own head and realize he hasn’t been pulling his weight since Zenith was rescued. He apologizes to Lilia for this, but Lilia isn’t mad; it’s her duty to care for Zenith, who allowed her to stay in her home after her and Paul’s indiscretion, after all.
Zenith’s contact with the crystal didn’t affect her physically, but it did wipe all her mana and memories, a condition that may be irreversible. Lilia, who loved both Paul and Zenith, vows to take care of her in Paul’s stead. When Rudy declares he’ll help to, Lilia politely reminds him that this is her duty, and that he should tend to his own duty. Paul would have told him the same.
The party starts the trek back to the teleport circle and home, and during the trip Roxy is a lot more lovey-dovey. When Rudy comes out and tells her he’s married with a kid on the way, she’s not surprised, because Lize and Geese already told her.
While they insisted Rudy would be okay after Paul’s death and weren’t going to do anything, Roxy knew differently. She remembered how Rudy could be from their time in Buena, and then fell in love with him at first sight when he rescued her.
She knew he had a wife back home who would have surely comforted him in his time of grief. But his wife wasn’t there. She was. She doesn’t pretend what she did was moral or selfless; in fact she argues the opposite. But she doesn’t regret what she did, because she was the only one who could do it.
Kohara Konomi is so, so good voicing Roxy in this touching scene, and throughout the episode. Even if we condemn her for taking advantage of Rudy, whom she loved, it’s likely he’d still be wasting away in his room if she’d done nothing. Since she’s unaware that Rudy loves her too, she neither expects nor asks for anything in return other than hearing her excuse.
When they reach and use the teleportation circle that returns them to Sharia, Rudy takes the first night’s watch with Lize. Lize precedes a request by explaining how neither he nor Sylphie are followers of Millis, and thus are not limited to marrying one person. Lize also makes clear that while she’s now happily monogamous with Cliff, she sees no problem with loving two people the same amount.
To this end, she tells Rudy of Roxy’s suffering, standing aside despite loving him so deeply, and asks him to marry her. Lize suspects Rudy loves both women, and he does, differently yet equally. She also tells him that while she did cry at first, Zenith wasn’t miserable after Paul married Lilia. She also tells him he’s Paul’s son, so she knows he can do this.
Lize summons Roxy to speak to Rudy, and after stumbling with his words, Rudy goes what he believes to be “Full Dirtbag,” telling Roxy he loves her and asking if he’ll marry him and take the name Greyrat. Rather than quickly saying yes, Roxy does the practical thing, asking him to ask her again once he secures his first wife’s approval, which he’ll need in order to take a second.
I did not expect things to move this quickly between Rudy and Roxy, even though I suspected something would go down eventualy. It’s super messy (and bound to get messier), but also feels true to these characters, who have never felt more flawed and real.
Roxy is honest in everything she says and does here except when it comes to stepping aside and denying her own happiness simply due to bad timing. In turn, Rudy is able to be honest and request something he would never think of doing back in modern Japan, while proving he’s Paul Greyrat’s son and Paul Greyrat was his father.